Breaking Patterns, Shaping Futures: An Intuitive Reading with guest Amanda

Immerse yourself in this enlightening episode of a live intuitive reading, where we delve into the realm of the subconscious, fears, and the quest for inner peace. The episode features a discussion about life challenges, decision-making, and the constant quest for balance. Equipped with relatable examples, such as the metaphor of carrying around emotional luggage, this episode promises a journey of self-discovery. Additionally, it includes a meditative experience led by Amy Hageman, inviting a visualization of a healing golden liquid coursing through your body, reminding you of your divinity and connection to higher energies. This experience is designed to ground you, reconnect you with your spirit, and nourish your body and soul.

KEY TAKEAWAYS

• Recognizing the Importance of Rest: Life, especially in its demanding phases, requires balance and rest. It's crucial to understand that it's okay to take a break when needed.
• The Luggage Analogy: Our anxieties and concerns are likened to a piece of luggage we persistently carry around. It's important to occasionally put down this luggage, metaphorically speaking, to give ourselves respite from constant worry.
• Being Present: The struggle of carrying mental 'luggage' often takes away from the joy of the present. It's essential to consciously remind ourselves to live in the moment.
• Self-Care and Connection: Taking time to reconnect with our inner selves and the spiritual realm is seen as a form of self-care. This can be done through mindful practices such as meditation or visualization exercises.
• Acknowledging Divine Support: The acknowledgment of a higher power, guides, or angels providing support and guidance can bring comfort and reassurance. This serves as a reminder of one's divine connection and the abundant support available.

LINKS

If you enjoyed the transformative experience of today's meditative healing, know that such serenity is not fleeting but can be a regular part of your personal journey. Consider scheduling your own session to continue nurturing your well-being. In these 1-1 sessions, you will be enveloped in LOVE, soothe your spirit, align your energies, and be guided towards inner peace.

 

 

TRANSCRIPT

 

Listening to your intuition.

Amanda  00:15

I'm so excited. Thank you.

Amy Hageman  00:18

Well, welcome to the podcast. Thanks for being willing to share your recording with all of us, and how can I help you today?

Amanda  00:26

I, first off, I just have been feeling like, I'm listening to myself a little bit more. And I just am curious if I really am more in tune. Or, you know,

Amy Hageman  00:40

Yeah, yeah. What they're telling me is that you're listening is really coming from your body. It's like your body is telling you to slow down, speed up, rest, or left, right, or whatever, versus I think for, they're saying, younger, when you were younger, you thought that your listening would come from outside of you, like, like, you'd be hearing something from outside of you telling you to go left. And so now that you've kind of anchored into your body's experience, it's just opened up your intuition, so much more

Amanda  01:13

Interesting.

Amy Hageman  01:14

So that's what they're, they're affirming for you that yes, you are listening more. And it's like something has just clicked that that the listening comes from inside of you rather than outside of you.

Amanda  01:24

Wow. Another thing I wanted to bring up is my boundaries with my family, more specifically my dad, and just kind of check in with how that I'm navigating that and as I just I'm really struggling as my kids are getting older and wondering if I'm doing the right thing, showing them what healthy boundaries look like and how we don't allow certain people or behaviors around us. Or if I'm making a mistake and not letting them know their grandparents.

 

There will be grief either way.

Amy Hageman  02:04

Yeah, there's gonna be grief either way, is what your guides say. They say you're getting a little bit hung up in the in the grief of the fact that the grandparents not around. In this path, where you've chosen a healthy boundary and healthy relationships, there's grief, in the other path: there's grief and trauma and stress. So they would advocate that you stay the course that you've chosen. This is always a freewill decision. It's not something where your guides are going to be like, This is what you should do. Like just to give you the full spectrum of Yeah, you could choose to have a closer relationship with your father, but it's not going to be healthy, it is going to be Trump trauma inducing at some point that you won't be able to predict. And so it's like, you're going to have grief either way. But one way, it's just the grief of not being able to have the relationship you want. And the other way, there's the added stress and trauma. And they say the only thing to remember and it feels it feels like you know this, it's not like something you don't know. But the only thing to remember is just that to just acknowledge Yeah, it is sad. I wish it was different. Of course, you know.

Amy Hageman  03:27

And it's sad. Sorry, that's not the right word. It's, it's complicated. On your dad's side of things. And so it's perfectly but

Amy Hageman  03:42

Yeah, so it's easy to kind of get lost in that complication, and that like complexity. But on the parenthood side of things, it's not complicated, either healthy or it's not healthy. Yeah, it's either beneficial or it's not, and it's not. And so they say when you feel like you're kind of spinning out in the butt, what if, or maybe this time or like, just all those layers of complexity. It's like, the complexity only exists when you're thinking about it from your dad's point of view.

Amy Hageman  04:12

Yeah.

Amanda  04:14

Yeah. Well, okay. Sounds good.

Amy Hageman  04:19

Yeah.

Amanda  04:21

I think my other I am wondering about my purpose outside of my family, you know, becoming a mom the past few years. So many things have shifted in wonderful ways and also the questioning of my worth, and my purpose outside of my family. So, you know, we're raised so long thinking we're doing this thing and they have a kid and everything changes. I just I feel very fulfilled and very happy and in my role as a mom and also sometimes they get really sad just thinking like, am I contributing enough to our family? Am I showing our kids this is a good example. Or am I not? Like, should I be doing more? How do people work and raise scared? And just kind of wondering, is there something else down the road for me? And how do I kind of just be really affirmed in my choice?

Amy Hageman  05:27

Right, right. 

Amy Hageman  05:29

There's so much good stuff out this question. I'm so excited to dive in. Remind me of your kids ages.

Amanda  05:36

Hudson is three. Sorry, two. Okay. Sorry.

Amy Hageman  05:42

Yeah, that's what I thought you were still like, in a little phase. I just wanted to confirm. Okay. So what they were showing when you were talking about sole purpose is they were they were showing me like this little sailboat like diving along on its path. And then the, it's like you had kids and that sailboat kind of capsizes. And it's not like, that's actually what happened, because the kids are very much a part of your sole purpose. But that's what it felt like. It's just like, Oh, my God, I'm underwater, like, how did I get underwater. And your soul took some time to adjust to, like motherhood being the thing that we're doing. Like, this is the thing that we're doing right now. For you, this is lovely.

 

The importance of choosing to be a full-time parent.

Amy Hageman  06:31

This is lovely. There's a lot of people, me included, that cannot be a full-time mom, like there's people that just cannot do it. But you're great at it.

Amanda  06:40

Thank you!

Amy Hageman  06:41

You're great at it. And you're right, you're right where you're supposed to be for now. For now, they want to affirm your decision, like this is not like a, oh, I should be having a 9-5  that I only do at night, that where I can just squeeze everything in like this is not one of those things. Your your job is your family. For now, in terms of sole purpose. I mean, those of us that choose to become parents, we have different layers of how that expresses in terms of sole purpose. So for you, one of the end of shining star aspects of you being a full time parent is that you are healing your family. And what they say is like you're breaking generational patterns, between your parents, your grandparents, your great grandparents to your kids, like, you're the thing that's going, Oh, we're not going to do that anymore. We're going to do this other thing. So that's part of what's happening with you being full time. The other thing is your oldest, your oldest really needs a strong foundation. And you're giving that to him. And if you had not chosen to be a full time parent, he wouldn't have that same foundation and your future years would be much harder.

Amanda  08:13

I can see that. Yeah, my husband says very.

Amy Hageman  08:18

Yeah, yeah. And so, you know, sometimes we feel like, if our sole purpose is wrapped up and other people needing us, it feels like we're not actually giving of ourselves independently. It's a weird thing where because people need us, it feels like we didn't choose it. But you absolutely chose this. You absolutely chose before you had kids. And once you had him this was a very conscious decision.

 

It was a choice and it was a hard choice.

Amanda  08:46

But it was, it was very intentional. Lots of thought and planning to make it possible.

Amy Hageman  08:54

Right.

Amanda  08:54

And I think this is a reminder that that is, it was a choice. I really did choose it.

Amy Hageman  09:02

Right? Isn't that weird? How like, because whether it's the business or the kid or the whatever, but because something needs us. It's like all of a sudden it feels like less of a choice.

Amanda  09:13

Yeah,

Amy Hageman  09:13

Really, that's just an aspect of alignment. That was like, Oh, this is the assignment. And I showed up for the assignment. And it's the hardest. But that doesn't mean it's not my purpose. It just means working hard.

Amanda  09:24

Yes. Oh, man, that's so good. Yeah, yeah.

Amy Hageman  09:30

So they do want to say, yes, in the future, your life is going to look different when your kids are not even like kindergarten. I mean, I don't even think till your youngest is in second grade, probably that your life will look more different than it does now. But I mean, even I'm seeing their first year or two where they're both in school. And whether that's home, school, public school, or whatever that is going to end up looking like for them. Like you're still going to be parenting is the job. That's the job.

Amanda  10:06

I love it.

Amy Hageman  10:07

Yeah, that's the assignment. And these kids. And I'm not saying that they're difficult kids, I just want to be clear for people listening to the podcast, because that's not what I'm saying. But these kids, they came in wanting a full time parent. Some kids come in and they want the social and they want the whatever and they want, they want different things. But your kids came in wanting for very different reasons might do. But they can't, they came in wanting a full time parent that is going to have that not constant, but like constant presence for them.

Amy Hageman  10:41

For your eldest, it's very grounding again, I went back to that foundation with him. Like, it's like, it's grounding. I need this foundation. Yeah. And it's like, he's going to be able to plant his roots, because of these early years with you. He's He's planting the roots so that he can grow much taller. And he's like, if if all of our souls were trees, like he's the type of tree that needs a really deep root system.

Amanda  11:06

Okay, I can see that.

Amy Hageman  11:07

It's just so important, so important. For your youngest, it's less about like, is you're gonna boy or girl?

Amanda  11:17

Girl.

Amy Hageman  11:17

Girl, okay. It's less about her. Her roots, and it's more about her understanding of what the world is. She wanted to come in, and really develop her belief system about the way that the world operates. Like, what is the definition of love? How does prosperity and given take work? What are my beliefs about my body? And like, the two of you together as souls before you incarnated? are like, Yeah, let's do that together. Let's do that work together. So all of that information she's getting from you, which is not putting pressure on it. But it's like, she's inheriting your worldview different than than kids that aren't at home full time.

Amanda  12:02

I really feel that how you kind of said just different reasons. They like our souls are connected. And for Hudson Yeah, I felt more of a need for his, like, survival and vitality on this earth. And Harlow, it feels like we've had something in the past before, and more whimsical. Um, yeah, just different. It's so so interesting. 

Amy Hageman  12:34

It's funny with her because with, with Hudson, I keep getting all the things about like, the earth and the trees and the roots, like I'm feeling the need to be very grounded, it feels good to be grounded with her, her energy is just kind of everywhere, everywhere. It doesn't necessarily feel like the scatterbrained type. Or it just feels like that's the way her energy is designed to be like she's probably very airy of the mind. Like just Yeah. And then they want to just reiterate, because we were talking about how, you know, with your daughter, it's about having this connection so that she's learning her worldview from you. And so they want to jump back to your question about your dad. And I say, this is a good reason to limit exposure to your dad. Given what your two kids came in, for, during this time of this, these precious first few years of life, they've just given you another affirmation of your, your, you're making really good sound healthy decisions.

 

We all come in to work on the same things.

Amanda  13:36

I feel like this is reminding me of my sisters growing up, and how I felt like very much I needed to lead them in my path so they can see what they could do. And whatever their choices in a job and relationships and boundaries. And I feel like it was like practice with my sisters. And now like, fully leaning into it as a parent. And yeah, just what you just said is like, an explosion in my head of like, thinking on this.

Amy Hageman  14:15

Yeah. Oh, man. And it feels to me not It feels to me what they're telling me is, but also it resonates with me. But what they're telling me is like we all come in to work on these things or heal these things. And they're all either cyclical. Well, they are. And they're all patterns. They're affirming for you. Yes. Like you did a layer of this work with your sisters and now you're doing a layer of this work with your kids at this age. And there will be more layers of this work while your kids are in your home and while they're outside of your home. And it's like we all have the same themes and then they they blossom into other areas and like it's it's interesting because some of the things that we like the themes start off as like lessons or work, but they often end up becoming gifts.

Amanda  15:05

Interesting.

 

Raising money for the future.

Amy Hageman  15:07

And so the guides don't want you to think that I'm telling you, this thing that's really hard that you've had to like hustle to create, it's also beautiful, you're gonna have to keep hustling every you know, every seven years, every 15 years is going to come up again, they're not saying that, they're just saying that our souls pick, you know, a handful of things to experience and to work on or to heal. And to those, those things that we pick up on those themes continue to come out. So coming back to speaking of themes, they want to come back to your sole purpose, you are a generation changer, that's part of your sole purpose, you did it with your sisters, you're doing it with your kids, and that's going to continue to play out for you, where you are creating new patterns. And I'm feeling this is really interesting, I'm in the future, I'm feeling a sense of like, fundraising, where it's like, you're a part of creating something a new system that wasn't there. So I don't know if it's public schools, or churches or whatever it is, but it's like, you're gonna be a part of a group of people that, that create a new thing. And it's like an obvious thing, where it's like, why don't we have a water fountain at this park? And we like, something like that, where everybody else is gonna be like, why did why didn't I think of that this is something we need, like, it's gonna be something like that, where you're a part of creating this thing for the future generation, there's a part of your soul that is, that's part of your path.

Amy Hageman  16:36

And also, just in general, part of your soul purpose, you know, people talk a lot about like, it's just to be just to be here. But what does that mean for you, part of that is what that means beauty. You have, I mean, you're a beautiful person, the podcast can't see you, but you're a beautiful person on the outside. But also on the inside, you have this beauty about your soul. And the way that I would describe like, what that's feeling like in my body is it's feeling like, I have strength, I've had to go through things to build this strength. But I'm not jaded, I still appreciate all the other things that you know. And I can see the gifts of the things that I had to go through to get the strength like there's, there's a strength about it, but there's also a joy and an appreciation of life about it also. Whereas other people that have gone through, those things don't lose, like there's an air of like tiredness, or of like, I gotta be on guard, I should protect other people, that sort of thing, your soul doesn't have that flavor to it.

Amy Hageman  17:43

So, if you had to think of the world as like a giant fruit pie, and you want so many berries that are strawberries, and so many that are blueberries, or whatever, it's like, part of the composition of the collective soul as some of our souls are here to bring beauty to life. And to remind others of what's beautiful, and you do that just by being yourself.

Amanda  18:09

Thank you.

Amy Hageman 18:10

So that's part of the gift of your soul. And that's part of your sole purpose. That is, is with you, in every phase of life. And so your guides just want to give you that so that you know it's never like Oh, I'm not living my purpose. Because just by being your being, you know, we we'd be short a blueberry and then and then the pie wouldn't be as sweet. You know, it's like, just by being we're living part of our purpose.

Amanda  18:37

That is so beautiful. Thank you!

Amy Hageman  18:40

Thank you. If had questions just about sole purpose in general, not just about this phase of life and so you know, let me know if I'm not answering your question.

Amanda  18:48

No, that was beyond what I could have asked for. So thank you.

Amy Hageman  18:56

What else we have planned plenty of time. 

Amanda  18:59

So I don't know but the past week probably I've been thinking about I don't know if it's because I knew I was going to be talking with you but

Amy Hageman  19:23

No, keep breathing. I love tears. I'm a crier, just keep breathing.

Amanda  19:39

When I was younger, I think it was really hard really talking about saying instead of just listening to myself in my head, especially now as a moment has a really different meaning. But when I was a teenager, I thought a lot about suicide. And I would self-harm.

Amanda  20:18

And then right before I got pregnant, I think even early on pregnant, I started having those thoughts again, just like, make my life easier. Stop it. And I don't have those thoughts right now. I'm just processing. I just feel really lost in those thoughts, and how sad I am thinking if I wasn't here, you know, my kids wouldn't be here. These things that you've shared with me, wouldn't be able to come to life. So just want to ask you, how can I kind of process those feelings to move forward?

 

How to deal with suicidal thoughts?

Amy Hageman  21:12

Yeah. This is such a beautiful question. And my guides are so grateful that you asked this question, because so many people have very intense phases, and then have lots of less intense phases where they have suicidal thoughts. It's so common. And so you asking this question is going to be beneficial for everybody. What they want to start with is the first layer of it is releasing, our judgment, our shame, like, whatever emotion we have about the fact that we had those thoughts. They say, at the end of the day, the reason why you had the thought, this is true for you. And it's true for everybody. The reason why you're having the thought is that you're human. And that's what human brains do. And being a human is hard.

Amanda  22:01

Really hard.

Amy Hageman  22:05

Yeah, it's really hard. And for whatever reason, our human brain loves to catastrophize. It's, it's trying to keep us safe. And so it's like sometimes when we're bored, our brain will be like, well, what would happen if I wasn't safe? Like it'll just wander through this complete catastrophizing space, and go off on this loop of like, well, this is what my kids would do. And that's what my husband would do. And everybody would be so sad. And I would just be fine. Like, it'll just go there. I brains just go there. And sometimes our thoughts create patterns. And so sometimes when we start catastrophizing, it's just like, oh, this is what my brain does when I'm bored. Or oh, this is what am I like, sometimes it's just a thought pattern thing. Sometimes it's like the literal, my life is really hard. And my brain is so overtaxed, that the best idea I can come up with is to just be done. And it's just because I'm tired, and my brain is too tired to come up with a better idea. I'm conscious, like, I'm just tired, and I have a brilliant brain is going to come up with a better idea. But right now it's jumping into that. Because it's an easy idea. It's a gimme.

 

What to do when your brain is too tired?

Amy Hageman  23:24

So that's just that's step one, to just like release any thoughts, judgment, or shame that we have about having thoughts, it's normal to have thoughts. It's cyclical, it could be that things are hard, it could just be that our brains are weird, and that's all fine. And the other thing that guys want to just insert here, is because you use the phrase moving forward, and they are going to come to that. But also, based on everything, they've just said, like this is going to happen again, you're going to have phases again, where it's like, dude, I'm out. I'm just out, you know. And so to recognize that there's a difference between a brain that is tired that is giving you thoughts, and a soul choice, mood.

Amy Hageman  24:22

And it can be really confusing because sometimes we have thoughts, we have way more thoughts than we're aware of. Sometimes our thoughts are just picking up collective energy that's not ours. If we're really empathic, sometimes it is an actual thought. And so no matter how bad or good the thought is, just to remind yourself that there's a difference between what I'm thinking and what my soul is going to choose. And sometimes they're in alignment and sometimes they're not. Okay, and so just to kind of like take the pressure or the significance off of it.

Amanda  24:58

That's huge. Thank you. so much.

Amy Hageman  25:01

Yeah, yeah. So it's gonna happen again. But in terms of moving forward, it's an invitation for self-love. invitation for, oh, I must really be tired. Promise, like really be stressed. So what can I do for myself? IE? How am I going to get help? Who can I ask for help? And it doesn't, it doesn't necessarily mean I need a therapist, it might just mean I need 10 minutes to go for a walk. I need to take a nap. I'm going to try to get a massage every month. Like it's just like, what's going on for me right now? Where I need some help. 

Amanda  25:44

Okay, yeah. Well, that was a good one. Thank you, Amy.

Amy Hageman  25:52

Oh, good. I'm so glad I know a lot of people are gonna be helped by that because it's so much more common. But it's one of those things people don't like to talk about. Because we think it's so shameful. And a lot of it's rooted in people that think that you'll go to hell, if you know, that's not a thing. And the guides, which they're going to insert real quick, if for anybody that actually did commit suicide, or has a loved one that committed suicide, they're not unhealthy. It's fine. Like the worst-case scenario, the guides are like, Well, that wasn't your best move. But we'll try again. So I just want to put that out there. But there for you, there's less concern about whether or not you would ever actually make that decision. And it's much more about like, your brain is going what does this mean? Like, what does this mean? I must be broken, or I must like, I must not be tough enough or something like your brain is trying to figure out? Why. Yes. And the why is like, dude, being human, it's hard to take a nap.

Amanda  25:52

Yeah, it's just that simple. Yeah.

 

Balancing the giving and giving.

Amy Hageman  26:51

Yeah. And especially, especially at the phase of life that you're in, it can be very hard to get rest when you're so needed. It's, it'd be very hard to balance the giving.

Amanda  27:07

Yes, yeah, you feel very constantly, am I making the right choice, am I making the right choice with the season that I'm in.

Amy Hageman  27:18

Like, I just put all that to bed. And what they actually are this to somebody else, and reading and they said it was really helpful. And they're giving me this image, again, think about some of your thoughts or your anxieties as like, luggage that you're carrying around. And it's got important stuff in there like we put stuff in the luggage for a reason. But just you can give yourself a day, like put the luggage down and be like, you know, I'm just gonna not worry about it for an hour. Or, and I'm not gonna worry about it for the rest of the day. And if I want to worry about it tomorrow, it will still be there. I will pick it back up. But I'm just deciding I don't need to carry this right now.

Amanda  27:55

Totally. I like the luggage image. So that'll be something to go to. Yeah.

Amy Hageman  28:02

And it literally is it's that inconvenient weight that you're carrying around. It makes it harder to just be present a the moment because you got to carry this dang bag around. And it's like, listen, I can I can go to that luggage. It'll be there when I need it. For now, I'm just going to be present. I've made the decision I've made I'm going to put it down. Yeah.

Amanda  28:27

Well, so I don't have any more questions. Is there anything else that you're feeling the angels are wanting to share?

Amy Hageman  28:35

Yes, they don't want to give you information, they want you to just have a minute or two, we're gonna have a minute all of us. So let's just close our eyes and breathe.

 

Breathe in the gold light. 

Amy Hageman  28:48

And they want you to feel as if they're boring, like a golden liquid throughout your body, and allow that liquid to go wherever it feels led to go. Allow that liquid to settle. It slows your heartbeat. It grounds you and just allow that liquid to flow throughout your body bringing all your organs into alignment with one another. It's revitalizing each and every one of your cells reminding your body that it's divinely connected. The divine energies all around it to the earthly energy supporting it. Just reminding your body it thinks for itself and breathes for itself. It heals itself without direction because it is a divine creation and in this moment, we just get to be There's nothing to do nothing to visualize, just get be.

Amy Hageman  30:12

And know that in this very moment where you are completely still, you are a gift to this world. And your nothingness presents makes the world a better place. And you can give yourself this stillness. Just allow that gold light to continue to flow wherever it wants to go. In some parts of your body, it may be light, some parts, it may be heavy while the gold light does the work, you are still and by taking this time, you've grounded yourself, you've reconnected with spirit. And you've reminded your greatest tool, your body, your nervous system, that you are divinely made to finally help, nourish, cherish, and guide it all as well. And when we come back from this time, you will breathe a little more peaceful. Move a little slower. And you will feel more connected with your soul. You'll resonate deeply with that beauty of who you are.

Amy Hageman  32:04

And you'll honor yourself for being a person that's able to change p that's able to create healthier, brighter futures. And your guides just want to remind you that you are so loved. You have 1000s of guides, angels loved ones on the other side supporting you. You are divinely connected. Now just take some breaths, and get back into your body. Start to maybe move around a little bit. And come back to this time and back to this place. Now that your love and when you're ready, open your eyes.

Amanda  33:01

Wow, that was so beautiful. Amy, thank you so much.

Amy Hageman  33:06

It was your guides. They don't do that in readings, but they did today. So I hope it's helpful.

Amanda  33:12

I have no words for how Yeah, that resonates with me. And I'm going to take that with me. So thank you.

Amy Hageman  33:17

Wonderful. Oh, and thank you so much for being willing to share your reading with us. I know there's gonna be so many people that get help from it. So thank you for sharing and have a beautiful day.

Amanda  33:29

Thank you. You too.

Amy Hageman  33:31

Thank you. Bye